Hey Peeps/Peers

So, I wasn't quite aware that Blogger and Blogster were the same site, nor did I know that you could have more than one blog per account. Therefore, this is just serving as a disclaimer of sorts. The other posts on this blog are raw, unedited, and came from a different place. You can read them if you like, (I'm obviously not stopping you). But I just wanted to throw those points out there so you'd know the whole story (or as much as you need to).

Stay Away

I feel it sinking in again. The despair, the frustration, the helplessness. The lack of motivation to eat or go out with friends. Waking up in the morning is literally the end to a perfect dream, but if that's the case, how come I can't fall asleep at night either? I remember what my goals used to be, but in this state, I aspire to do nothing. There's no going forward, although going backwards would be worse. Even just sitting here it taking it's toll on me. Every second drags on, as if through sludge; smothering the sweetness of the air, the light of the smiles, and the melody of the voice from the world. Turning everyone against me, against my will and theirs; their voices echoeing in a scratchy repeating unison, like a record that keeps skipping, even in the dead silence. And even if I wanted to turn it off, I can't. I know the voices are pleading with me to do good, but it comes out like orders to do bad, to completely lose myself and let everything go. As if there isn't any hope left, because there's not.

I Swore Never Again, But You Just Keep Pulling Me In

How is it...
Your smiles give me a reason to live.

But,
Your words come all too quick.
And they're never there to comfort,
Or console.
Always clawing at what hurts the most.

Hopefully, there is room for me to still hope
That there are good reasons for this

That
Your heart is just waiting for someone else to fill the emptiness.

A Little Introduction

First of all, Merry Christahannukwanza and Happy New Year to like... the one person that reads this.

Next; it's about me.
So, I just wanted to say that this will probably be updated whenever I feel like it. Which actually won't be that often because I don't have the time and this is my slacker year so I can do whatever the fuck I want. (: That goes to show that everything written on here is shit. This is because of the reason that I type these things out as I go and rarely edit... so sorry if it makes your brain cells commit suicide.

Furthermore, I know this little thing lacked structure, but whatevs. I hope everyone had a good holidays. I know I did. (;

Two Oh One - Three Hours, Fifty-Eight Minutes Til The End

Man, life really sucks.